Ayesanity

2009-01-30T23:19:00.003+08:00

BAKIT "C" LANG ANG ADVISORY MARK KO SA LIT14 ? ? ? UGH, I AM STARTING TO HATE POETRY.
GUSTO KO MAG-DL THIS SEM!
PAANO? :| :| :|
ANG HIRAP.

SORRY NA KUNG GRADE CONSCIOUS AKO.
BUT I NEED, I WANT TO BE A DEAN'S LISTER.
But it seems that some things (and people?) are conspiring against me.

Oh maaaan :(
There are just some things in which i have no control over :(

LETTER GRADE OF "A", please be within reach! :(
I RARELY get an A in any exam or requirement. :( :( :(
Whyyyyy. HUHUHU :((
DEPRESSED.

I MISS GETTING HIGH GRADES!

2008-11-25T15:54:00.005+08:00

Kung nag-UP kaya ako, mas magiging madali kaya ang buhay ko? Hindi 'to tungkol sa academics. Sigurado namang mahirap sa UP, baka mas mahirap pa sa Ateneo. :-S Napaisip lang ako. Kasi may mga taong nagsabi sa akin na mas bagay daw ako sa UP. Paano ba masasabing mas bagay ang isang tao sa isang University?

Minsan, napapansin kong iba ko sa napakaraming Atenista. Unang-una, mayayaman talaga halos lahat sa Ateneo at minsan di ko matanggap ang mga lifestyle nila. To be honest, I feel inferior. At kung nung HS ay hindi ako gaanong confident, mas lalo na ngayon. Naisip ko lang, kung nag-UP ako, baka tumaas kahit kaunti ang self-esteem ko dahil parang mas pantay-pantay ang estado sa buhay ng mga mag-aaral ng UP (May mga rich kids din naman dun, but I think their lifestyles are not too extravagant compared to Atenista RKs) But then again, paano ko naman 'to masasabi, eh wala naman ako sa UP? I am assuming. Ilang beses na ko nakapuntang UP, at mukha naman talaga silang simpleng mga tao. I dunno. I think kung nandun ako, wala akong paki kung ano susuotin ko! Sa ATENEO kasi, minsan wala akong paki sa suot ko, but most of the time, I care. Haha! At sa UP, I'm pretty sure a big part of the population ay nagcocommute! Baka may kasabay pa ko! Haha! Sa Ateneo, de-kotse at de-drayber ang marami. (sorry na!) Pero ang gusto ko naman sa ateneo, kumpara sa UP, mas SAFE! :) AT NUMBER 1 na ang AdMU sa Philippines!

I should stop comparing! Ayoko na magcomplain!
Ang swerte ko na nga na nag-aaral ako sa Ateneo. Pero sa UP kasi, may gusto kong course! CLOTHING TECH. Haha! At wala akong paki kung sabihin ng iba na walang future sa clothing tech. Di ako naniniwala. Haha!

Don't get me wrong!
I LOVE ATENEO! Really!
But sometimes, I still wonder if I made the right choice. BUT WAIT, hindi lang ako ang nagdecide nito.!

2008-10-22T23:52:00.005+08:00

I wanna watch HSM3 na ;D
Ready na me. HAHAHA.
Coz I watched the first HSM last night, and HSM2 a while ago.
O diba, HSM overload.

Okaaay AYA stop being such a kid.
But I'm not being a "kid", I'm being a fan.
Stop being a "fan" then.
What's wrong with being a "fan"?
Nothing's wrong. BUT you sound like an obsessed "fan"
Oh no, NO! I'm not obsessed. Ayoko nga ng boses ni VANESSA HUDGENS pag kumakanta sa HSM eh. >;D
So what?

SO WHAT? I'm still a rockstar.

ENOUGH OF MY WEIRDNESS.
I should sleep now.
SABAW na me ;D
Bakit ganun, akala ko dati nakakasabaw lang: mahirap na lessons, corny jokes...
NAKAKA-SABAW din pala pag wala ka nang magawa at masabi.
BOREDOM to the FULLEST.
Huhuhu.

2008-10-18T01:47:00.006+08:00

I'm still awake :-ss

SM Megamall was so crowded today, I mean yesterday (coz it's already 2am)
And it was super traffic going there.
There was a mall-wide sale but I didn't buy anything. I was eyeing this really cool pair of shorts! Its price was half the original but I couldn't buy it :(
Sucks to be moneyless.

I should stay away from this store called BOOKSALE as much as possible. I'm so broke!
I already bought 3 back issues of imported mags and I still cant get enough
(last Saturday-cosmo girl and vogue australia. Last Wednesday, Teen Vogue)
Yah see, I was in Megamall thrice this week!

I'm having problems with my laptop :-ss It shuts down unexpectedly. :-ss
it's brandnew and it's already having problems. Waaaah. Just got it last Wed.
Late birthday gift from my parents. It's kinda big but it's orayt. I dont wanna complain! :)

I cant seem to let go of my blospot account so I'm updating it.
But my tumblr is still there, alive and kicking. Okay, not kickin! but it's there.
So I currently have Multiply, Blogspot and Tumblr. Oh and plurk too...
I have so many outlets online. :))
Madali akong i-stalk! :))

2008-10-11T11:37:00.003+08:00

Ako'y aalis muna sa ayesanity.blogspot.com
Di ko alam kung gaano katagal.
Baka di na ko bumalik.
Baka bumalik ako.
Hindi ko alam.

Basta, dito na muna ako magpaparamdam:
CLICK MO DITO.

2008-10-05T18:45:00.001+08:00

Gusto kong magmura. Gusto kong umiyak.
Gusto kong magwala. Gusto ko nang matapos ang hell week at finals week.

2008-10-03T23:01:00.003+08:00

it's 11something PM.
and...

ay3sa loves: Jack's Mannequin songs. they made her feel better today
ay3sa likes: YOU. [and she thinks you know na] OHMY
ay3sa shares: her love for plurk. Join kayo ;)
ay3sa gives: in to the voice in her head that says "BREAK TIME muna! Mamaya na ulit yung essay mo"
ay3sa hates: cramming, but is often left with no other choice
ay3sa wants: to sleep early but she can't
ay3sa wishes: to get high grades in her final exams and papers.
ay3sa needs: her own laptop
ay3sa will: not be at home tomorrow because she has 2 group meetings to attend
ay3sa hopes: that tomorrow will not be like today
ay3sa asks: what time should I stop doing my english critical essay?
ay3sa has: to finish her english critical essay before she succumbs to exhaustion and sleep-deprivation
ay3sa was: not like this in high school
ay3sa wonders: how she'll study one semester's worth of Biotech lessons in time for the final exam
ay3sa feels: unhappy 'cause she had a bad day
ay3sa thinks: caffeine can help her stay awake but she doesn't want to drink coffee right now
ay3sa says: everything will be fine.
ay3sa is: sleepy

2008-10-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

HELL WEEK

2008-09-29T21:31:00.002+08:00

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

2008-09-28T18:52:00.010+08:00

Random-ness-es

*I want to kick myself for not taking a video of his performance-slash-demo.
[oh well, ang major stalker ko if I did. haha :P]

*And why didn't I come up with better things to say to him? WHY.
I said "galing!" more than thrice. How pathetic is that?
It was my moment to have an actual conversation with him and all I could blurt out was "galing!" [but yeah, he was really so galing kanina]

*I LUUUV sales. I think half of the stuff in my closet were bought on sale. And have I mentioned how much I love department stores [and i love them more when they're on sale]? sales + department stores=MY CLOTHES OBSESSION. :P
I'm broke. BUT it's owkei powz. Kinda happy 'cause I've got new clothes. Next on my list: NEW SHOES/Flats.

*I bought 2 back issues of NYLON magazine for 65php and 90php. I'm sooo happy! So babaw, eh?

*I'm liking plurk more and more. it's so plurky :P

*The Ting Tings' SHUT UP AND LET ME GO and THAT'S NOT MY NAME are the perfect LSS(s)

*BONFIRE on Tuesday. Weeee.

2008-09-24T22:45:00.003+08:00

This week, I got new stuff
New glasses,
New haircut,
Some new clothes,

and of course

New worries, problems, things to look forward to, things to dread.

I need some getting used to.
There's just a lot of.. "newness". changes. encounters.
I like new things, but sometimes I still haven't absorbed a particular new experience, and here comes another one. Until everything's overlapping and I just want to escape it all and go back to what I'm used to, the past.

The Middle
-Jimmy Eat World
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).

2008-09-19T22:47:00.001+08:00

Who cares?

You dont care, I dont care.
We dont care, They dont care.
NO ONE CARES.

God cares

2008-09-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

It's past 11.
My back hurts.

Right eye without contact lens. HALF BLURRY vision
Sleepy. tired. undecided. uncertain.

2008-09-14T17:57:00.003+08:00

NAIINIS AKO SA GLOBE.
Ang hirap magsend kanina. Tapos nadoble pa yung SULITXT ko.
So naubos yung P30 na pinaload ko kanina.

Sa katulad kong mahirap, importante ang bawat piso na load.
TAPOS MASASAYANG LANG.
RAAAARRR. fuck.
I HATE YOU GLOBE

so iaadd ko sa bday wishlist ko:
LOAD!

2008-09-13T22:10:00.006+08:00

I'm turning 18 soon. VERY soon.

So if you love me, you might wanna give me a gift.
HAHAHA, ang kapal ng mukha ko ;)

I waaant:

*HOT PINK, PURPLE, RED, or kahit anong kakaibang shade ng nail polish from The Face Shop or ELIANTO :)
*~~ATENEO shirt. [Kasi, kahit isa wala ako]~~
*~~Latest issue ng YOU Magazine~~
*~~Sunglasses~~ ;) (Ray-Ban Wayfarers! Haha, kiddin!)

O diba, mababaw lang ako. HAHAHA.

2008-09-13T15:57:00.001+08:00

Taylor Momsen, what happened to your hair?
Di na kita crush! Hmf.

Nawala ni Mom yung glasses ko :(
Ayoko naman mag-contacts sa bahay :(
So right now, my face is.. about 3 inches away from the computer screen.
sucks to have terrible eyesight *Sigh*

2008-09-12T16:33:00.008+08:00

Lab period
Around 2:00++ pm

AYA (napansin ang slippers ni RB):
RB, bakit pangbabae 'yang slippers mo?

TET (biglang hirit):
eh AYA, bakit 'yang dibdib mo panlalaki?

Oo na, flat-chested na 'ko :|
And it sucks.
Sa bahay pa lang, Nanay ko pinapansin na yun eh.
Pati ba naman sa school aasarin ako? Rarr.
Lalaki ba ko? Baka nga :> :)) :|

2008-09-11T20:17:00.006+08:00

LOOKBOOK. It's the best! Click here. now!

Why am I not in fashion school? why am i not taking up a fashion-related course? WHY??? why am i not artistic? WHY WHY WHY.

Why do birds suddenly appear?

2008-09-10T22:06:00.003+08:00

It's past 10pm and I still haven't started reviewing for math.
Who the hell cares?

I almost cried a few minutes ago.
I felt really sad after reading a recent journal entry of a friend.

It made me realize that.. Hell, I am no one. REALLY.
It sucks. I could disappear now and no one will notice.

fine, this is so EMO. but wtf? I feel emo at the moment.

2008-09-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

So far, this is the shortest short story I've ever read.

Taboo
by Enrique Anderson Imbert
1966

His guardian angel whispered to Fabian, behind his shoulder:
"Careful, Fabian! It is decreed that you will die the minute you pronounce the word doyen."
"Doyen?" asks Fabian, intrigued.
And he dies.

2008-09-06T23:08:00.007+08:00

I need a haircut...
and I also need a "lovelife". Welllll, I don't need one, I just want one.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2008-09-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

Shit.

Naka-login ako when I was "stalking" his Multiply site.

Oh no.

2008-09-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday morning (around 6.50-7.30?) was unforgettable :) :) :)

2008-09-01T19:17:00.001+08:00

Ang bait ni Lord!
Today wasn't great but it was a good day ;)

2008-08-28T19:49:00.003+08:00

D for Dead.

I got a D in my Math long test 2
a "D"
and I don't feel depressed at all ;D

Bakit ganun, basta pumasa okay na sa 'kin?
Oh no.
I have to aim for high grades!
Bawi, bawi sa next sem! Hindi, dapat sa next exam!
A for Aya

2008-08-24T17:55:00.003+08:00

*Panic*

So much to do, so little time.
So tamad me! Haven't started anything yet and it's already Sunday night.
Only one more day [Monday] to cram everything.

I'm finally feeling the notorious college load.

2008-08-23T16:19:00.006+08:00

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO SOCIALIZE a.k.a.

HOW NOT TO BE OUT-OF-PLACE.
HOW TO START A CONVERSATION.
HOW NOT TO BE SHY.
HOW TO BE CLOSE TO PEOPLE.
HOW TO BE MORE FRIENDLY.
HOW TO BE TALKATIVE MORE OFTEN.
HOW TO BE MORE INTERESTING and FUN-TO-BE-WITH.
HOW TO MAKE MORE FRIENDS.

Being an introvert sucks.

2008-08-23T14:22:00.005+08:00

Taylor Momsen is gorgeous! and HOT! :>
I have a girl crush on her!

guilty pleasure=OCEANUP [Here's the link]

2008-08-23T13:02:00.006+08:00

HELLO WORLD. [Asiftheworldreadsmybloghaha]
So nominado akong FREP [gabay]
Ewan ko ba kung sino nagnominate sakin. Di ko nga inaasahang manonominate ako eh. Rawr.
Tapos nung discernment, pinag-isip kami kung tatakbo kami or hindi. YES or NO lang. Walang explanation.

Ako yung unang tinawag ;|
Di ko sinabing "NO" pero ginalaw ko yung ulo ko na "no". [Get?] :))

Awww. Malabo nang magbago isip ko.
Malabo rin naman kasi akong manalo.
Pero... loser ako. Kasi di ko man lang subukan.

Ayaw ko ba ng responsibilidad?
Ayos lang naman.
Pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko sa previous entry ko, nahihiya ako.
At medyo OP rin kasi ako sa Gabay eh. Wala akong ka-close. LONER me. *sigh*

At hindi lang ako sa Gabay nakaka-feel ng OPness :(

AWWW

2008-08-21T20:12:00.006+08:00

I know I don't smile (a lot) and I don't talk that much..
But that doesn't mean I'm a snob.
And I am not mataray.

Tahimik lang talaga ko kasi nahihiya pa siguro?
{Depende kasi sa kasama ko. Kung bago pa lang tayo magkakilala, you might misinterpret my being quiet and shy)

Pero mahiyain lang talaga ako.
And I don't smile a lot 'cause I hate my teeth. [So yun yung explanation]
I'm in dire need of braces.
'cause my "smile" is already affecting my social life. HAHA
Some people tease me as the girl who doesn't smile... or the girl who doesn't talk.
Yung tipong "kailangan mo pa pigain" para magsalita....
Uyy nagsasalita kaya ako!

To be honest, ayoko rin na ganito ako ka-mahiyain or ka-tahimik around some people.
I'm actually trying to muster enough courage to speak up or initiate a conversation pero di ko magawa. EWAN ko kung bakit. Kasi di ko alam kung paano.

MATH11tests=Suck.Crap.Bitch.Bullshit.

2008-08-18T17:39:00.002+08:00

ANG TAKAW KO, i swear.
Pag nasa bahay lang ako [LIKE TODAY=HOLIDAY], kain ako nang kain.
Kahit busog na ko, kahit hindi ako gutom, gusto ko pa rin kumain.
OKAAAY, sana kasi kahit konti tumaba naman ako diba :| :| :|

2008-08-16T10:27:00.007+08:00

I want and need...

an iPOD.
an SLR.
a Laptop.

SERIOUSLY.
kapag di ko nakuha yung tatlong yan before 2008 ends, magwawala ako. MAGTATANTRUMS AKO.
Okaaay, childish much.

I know, i know..
I'm desperate and materialistic >:)

So that I won't seem too materialistic,
I also WANT AND NEED...
*to learn how to play the guitar WELL. Gusto ko matuto at maging magaling..
*...pati pala Adobe Photoshop.

Okaaay, AYA=AMBISYOSA [rhyming?] :|

Sana kasi nag-eeffort ako matuto diba :|

2008-08-15T21:08:00.008+08:00

Pumunta kami sa UP kanina!
Mini-reunion with HS friends)
Ang sarap ng isaw!!! :D :D :D

LONG WEEKEND ahead!
I deserve it. I'm super tired. From all the traveling. Kala mo naman TRAVELING na tipong out of town or out of the country.
Pero pagcocommute lang pala. :D
AYUN. May mga nagsabi sa 'kin na PUMAYAT daw ako.
Kung pumayat nga ako, sa pagod siguro. Rawr. SANA PUMAYAT DIN PATI BRASO KO.
Wag na mukha ko please. Mukha na kong skeleton. Or pwede ring zombie kasi malaki at maitim na eye-bags ko.

My back aches. It's because I carry my backpack everywhere. MAJOR walking pa ang ginawa namin sa UP kanina.

Haaay,
Am i desperate? I dunno. Maybe.
What I learned today:
Mahirap umasa sa wala... so don't assume.

2008-08-13T21:38:00.002+08:00

I'm loving Jack's Mannequin more and more.

Kailan kaya may magbibigay sakin ng rose? HAHAHAHA.
Wait, ang tanong is MAY MAGBIBIGAY BA SAKIN? HAHAHAHA.
Wala lang. Napaisip lang ako. Kasi kanina sa Biotech, a classmate of mine received some roses. Awwww.

2008-08-13T21:03:00.002+08:00

This day was a bitch. Okay, bakit bitch naman ang term ko? Haha, ewan!
Kasi namaaaaaan, ang hirap sumakay kanina pauwi! 1 hour and 30 mins ako nag-intay. RAWR. Umuulan pa.
Dismissal ko today 1:30. Pero nag-stay ako for the FREP nominations (4:30-6) TAPOS DI NAMAN NAABOT YUNG QUOTA NA 40 freshmen. Wala pa yatang 20 yung pumunta.
So umalis ako ng Ateneo ng 6. Dumating ako sa bahay 8 na! :((
Tired.SOBRA.RAWR.AYOKO NA MAG-COMMUTE.

2008-08-12T19:50:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to write about. Gusto ko lang magsulat.
Bakit ang paranoid ko? At bakit nagfifeeling ako. Nag-aassume.
LOSER KO TALAGA:))

2008-08-04T15:47:00.002+08:00

I love style "blogs" and any website related to fashion. SORRY na, I know I'm not stylish but I really admire people who express themselves well in the clothes they wear. NAKS. English yun. HAHA!
Anyway, I discovered a new site. Online magazine siya. Super cool.
PRIM MAGAZINE

2008-08-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

Ang saya! Ang bilis na ulit ng computer namin at gumagana na nang maayos ang internet.
Yess! Nabawasan na ang stress ko :))

2008-08-01T22:41:00.003+08:00

Kaninang umaga, free cut kami sa English so hindi ako pumasok nang maaga.
Next class ko is Lit13 at 8:30am.
Umuulan at sobrang traffic. Nakarating ako sa school around 9am na.
Di na ko pumunta sa Lit class ko dahil sobrang late ko na. I was already expecting that I'll miss a quiz. OO, nag-quiz nga sila. RAWR
First time ko nag-cut [Na hindi free cut, as in CUT talaga]
I feel guilty. HAHA
Pero sabi nga nila, there's always a FIRST for everything.

2008-07-30T19:26:00.003+08:00

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil nag-aassume ako!
WTF AYA?

2008-07-29T22:11:00.003+08:00

PUMASA KO SA LONG TEST SA BIOTECH AT MATH! YEHEY!

2008-07-25T10:29:00.003+08:00

Kristen Stewart is dating Michael Angarano! Cute couple ;) Haha, wala lang!

Nasa Macci ako ngayon. More than 1 hour na. YEY. Free internet.
Free cut kami sa Lit kanina ;)

So nasa website ako ngayon ng Vanity Fair. Kasi naman ang mahal nung magazine kaya hanggang website na lang ako. HAHA.

First “Hollywood” moment? “Signing iPhones. I’m like, ‘Dude, I don’t want to ruin your phone!’ ” -Chace Crawford (VF interview)

2008-07-25T09:51:00.003+08:00

"Sandals with socks are certainly up there. Generally speaking, it's footwear trends. I mean, the Croc--it looks like a plastic hoof. How can you take that seriously? I know it's comfortable; I understand that. But if you want to dress to feel as though you never got out of bed, don't get out of bed."

--Tim Gunn's thoughts on the worst fashion trends, in Time Magazine.

2008-07-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

Gwapo ni JOE [Jonas]
Ka-pangalan pa niya si... si... Malamang kilala niyo na, ka-pangalan nga eh :P

2008-07-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hindi talaga ko umiinom ng kape. I mean, umiinom ako ng frappe sa Sbucks pero yung kape sa bahay hindi. Get? Nasubukan ko na dati maglagay ng katiting na amount ng kape sa gatas ko. Mahilig nga pala ko sa gatas. Eh parang gusto ko ng mocha-flavored kaya sinubukan ko na dating maglagay nga ng konting kape. EH NGAYONG GABI, KAILANGAN KONG MAGING ALERTO AT GISING DAHIL MARAMI AKONG KAILANGANG GAWING SCHOOLRELATED so uminom ako ng MOCHA drink na inimbento ko (AKA GATAS NA MAY KAUNTING KAPE). WALA LANG.

2008-07-19T21:29:00.001+08:00

Bumili ako ng dress sa ukay para suotin sa debut ni Mela.
Hindi naman ako nakapunta :(

2008-07-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

ANG SAYA NG ALL-CAPS.

NUNG HS AKO, PAG MAY GROUPWORK, MALAKING BAHAGI ANG KONTRIBUSYON KO.
MADALAS PA NGA, MAY PAGKA-LIDER-LIDERAN AKO.
PERO NGAYON SA COLLEGE, PARANG... HINDI NA 'KO MASYADONG USEFUL PAG MAY GROUPWORK :(
OKAY DAHIL WALA AKO MASYADONG RESPONSIBILIDAD. PERO PARANG HINDI AKO SANAY NG GANITO.

2008-07-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

Naiinis ako dahil... wala akong load.
Napipikon ako sa... computer namin, lalo na sa internet.
Natatakot ako sa... PALAKA [Meron ba naman kanina sa kwarto namin! Maliit lang. PERO SCARY PA RIN. Paano naman nakarating yun sa loob ng kwarto???]

2008-07-14T17:19:00.003+08:00

Miss ko na si EDWARD and BELLA. Pero mas miss ko si Edward. HAHA.
Hindi ko pa nababasa yung Eclipse :| Sana makahanap na ko ng panahon para mabasa yun.

Ang ganda ng lyrics ng kantang 'to!

Twilight Hour
-Mitch Hansen Band

(About how Bella wants to spend forever with Edward)

Its a simple thing
Losing me would hurt you so deeply
I see it in your ocher eyes
Don't let me be an eye blink
In you endless, sleepless eternity
You know you want me by your side

Please tell me why
Take my hand and stop all this debating
Please change your mind
The hourglass only offers so much waiting

Because I'm just one of those grains you see
Slipping down the neck of the bottle
Soon the top will be empty
And you'll be out of me

Its the hardest thing
There are too many Forks here in my road
Which is the path that I should choose
Inside my heart the answer's
Glinting, hinting, waiting for me to see
The road less traveled leads to you

Please tell me why
Take my hand and stop all this debating
Please change your mind
The hourglass only offers so much waiting

Because I'm just one of those grains you see
Slipping down the neck of the bottle
Soon the top will be empty
And you'll be out of me

Here in our meadow
I see you as you really are
Out of the shadows
You are my shining star

You're picturesque
Then there's me I'm always such a mess
That never makes you love me less
You offer me protection
When all I want is preservation
Please make the time stand still for me

Because I'm just one of those grains you see
Slipping down the neck of the bottle
Soon the top will be empty
And you'll be out of me

2008-07-13T19:21:00.001+08:00

19:26 pm
Excited na 'ko pumasok bukas.
Hulaan mo kung bakit. HEHE :P

2008-07-13T00:02:00.001+08:00

00:04 am
Stalker Mode

2008-07-12T22:01:00.006+08:00

Nanood kami ng TARONG nung Wednesday nang gabi.
Maganda naman yung dula.
Di ko talaga makakalimutan yung halikan ng dalawang lalaking characters dun sa huling kwento.

Masaya mag-MASH.
Yung laro!

Dalawang buwan na lang, 18 na ko.
Ang tanda ko na :|

Nung nasa Assumption pa ko, wala naman akong problema sa edad ko. Hindi ako isa sa mga pinaka-matanda sa klase, di rin pinaka-bata. Gitna lang, ganun.

Pero sa ATENEO, feeling ko ang tanda ko para sa isang freshman.
Paano ba naman, birthday ko 1990.
Marami sa kapwa-freshie ko 1991 pinanganak, meron pa ngang 1992!
Tapos may mga nakilala rin akong sophomores, 1991 din.
Mas matanda pa ko :|

2008-07-05T13:12:00.008+08:00

Akala ko magbabago na.
Pero parang ganun pa rin eh.

ANYWAY.
Kailangan ko ng pera.
Gusto ko manood ng LIFEHOUSE.
Balak ko nga sumali sa mga contests sa radyo na namimigay ng tickets eh.
Haha! Masubukan nga!

Pagod na ko mag-ingles. Hahaha!
Sa Ateneo, dinudugo na ilong ko dahil napakaraming Inglisero't Inglisera
At dahil diyan, napagdisisyunan kong sa wikang TAGALOG na ko magsusulat sa blog na 'to.
Siguro minsan, TAGLISH.
Di naman talaga ko magaling magsulat at magsalita ng Ingles.
Kung iisipin, medyo trying hard ako. Haha!

Wala lang. Wala na kong masabi.

Ay wait, meron pa pala! Ito ang ika-160 kong post.
Napakaraming beses ko nang ginustong burahin 'tong blog na 'to pero hindi natutuloy.
Ang tagal na kasi ng blog na 'to. Patagalin pa natin ;)
Nasubukan ko nang magblog sa LIVEJOURNAL Eto tignan niyo. CLICK here

Please, wag niyo ko pagtawanan. Nene pa ko niyan. Kung ano-anong kalokohan pa mga pinaglalagay ko diyan. SOBRANG JOLOG ko pa niyan :) Ngayon JOLOG na lang ako. Hindi na sobra.

Nasubukan ko na rin ang MOTIME. Pero wala na yun!
Naka-ilang blog na rin ako dito sa BLOGGER pero binura ko na rin.
Kaya itong BLOG na lang na 'to ang natitira.
Ayun. Ilagay daw ba dito ang history ng pagboblog ko. HAHAHA.

2008-07-04T23:46:00.006+08:00

I am scared. Yep, SCARED is the word to describe it.
I'm having a hard time trying to understand our lesson in BIOTECH :(
I cannot fail. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY SCHOLARSHIP.
Even if it's just a partial scholarship, it means a lot to me and my family.
Biotech is really difficult :(
Why did I choose it as my NatSci in the first place? Too late now! Regretting my decision won't really help... I will just study extra hard, and maybe, hopefully, I would get at least a C [Much better if I get a grade higher than that].

During Lab this afternoon, I was so frustrated 'cause I couldn't understand what we were talking about and what we were trying to do :((

What's worse, we don't have a book yet :(

Haaay, I'm just so worried... I felt the need to blog it out.

CHANGE TOPIC!;))

I saw SKANDAR KEYNES' disney clip (the one where he says, "Hi I'm Skandar Keynes blah blah.. and you're watching disney channel."

It was posted on someone's multiply site and I watched it uhhhh, FIVE TIMES? :))
I LOOOOOVE HIS ACCENT. Plus he's such a cutie ;)

Shit. Nauubusan na ko ng damit na sinusuot sa school.
I MISS WEARING A UNIFORM.

2008-06-27T21:50:00.007+08:00

I had a really bad morning.
I was able to ride a jeepney at once but then I realized I forgot my file case.
So I had to go down at Valley Golf to wait for my Mom to bring it to me. I spent around 30 minutes waiting for her. I was in panic mode the whole time! She brought me to school but I still didn't make it on time. I arrived at 7:36 (Just 6 minutes LATE), soon after attendance was checked. I think it's already my third CUT (1 Late/Absent= 1 Cut) for English11. I couldn't help but cry silently on my seat. I was so disappointed because I was tardy AGAIN, and this time it wasn't because I couldn't find a jeep/fx to ride nor because of the traffic. I was late because of my freakin' filecase! My mood didn't improve much as the day ended.

2008-06-21T21:42:00.011+08:00

I'm getting really paranoid with our computer so I'm grabbing this rare (rare nowadays) opportunity of the internet actually working properly.

I'm still trying to make up my mind whether or not to audition for Tanghalang Ateneo.
The last day for org sign-ups is on Monday, I think. So I better decide by then.

And I'm hoping that I could still register for a locker. I badly need one and it sucks that I wasn't able to prioritize my locker application. I kept putting it off that I ended up not getting a form last week.

I still have a LOOOOT to learn about college life.

Anyway, I have kwento.
I was late for my 7:30 class (English 11) twice before, so last Wednesday I woke up extra early. I arrived in school at 7am. WOW, first time! Then by 7:40, our prof still hadn't arrived. My classmates began to leave. FREE CUT! I didn't know whether to be happy or not :|

2008-06-21T16:01:00.003+08:00

(Just in case something f*ing wrong happens with this Computer again... it happens very often nowadays) I'm posting my part for our English Presentation here on my blog so that there's an extra copy.

The Most Important Day
-Helen Keller

1) Subject:
-The essay is about the arrival of Anne Sullivan in Helen Keller’s life, which the latter considers the most important day of her life.

2) Theme:
-The writer, Helen Keller herself, described how her life was transformed when Anne Sullivan came to teach her. This education made Helen a new person. She experienced hope, love and direction with Miss Sullivan.

3) Audience and Style:
- The intended audience would be readers interested in life stories, particularly those with disabilities or handicaps because they can be inspired by Helen Keller’s story.
- The writer put together the essay in chronological order, narrating several incidents to stress the valuable contribution of her teacher in her life. Helen Keller also used analogy and included an anecdote to further support the subject of her essay.

4) Purpose:
- This essay’s purpose, being an autobiographical essay, is to share something personal to the readers. In this case, it was the insights gained from her experience and the significant role her teacher played that Helen Keller wanted the readers to grasp.

2008-06-19T19:44:00.003+08:00

I am so pissed with the internet at the moment. Mozilla doesn't go to websites like Yahoo, Multiply... The sites we always visit. WHAT THE HELL??? I think it's because of the viruses. I swear, sobrang dami nang virus ng computer namin. POP-UPS, SPYWARE, other CRAP. At ngayon, yung internet naman ang nagloloko. Nakakaasar!

2008-06-13T21:30:00.006+08:00

*I'm freaking tired. Uh no. I think EXHAUSTED is the right word.
My first class today was En11 and I walked all the way from Petron [the one near the bridge in Katip] to Kostka Hall. Imagine! I had no choice. The line at the tricycle terminal was really long and I had barely 10 mins to be able to make it in time. So I walked. And RAN. I was super haggard (messy hair; sweat. Eww) when I arrived in class. Thank God our Prof wasn't there yet. She arrived a couple of minutes after I did. Whew! I was lucky.

*Ate dinner at Katip with some of my 4th year classmates :)
Fun get-together! :)

*I survived the first week of college [Freshman year]! Woohoo!

2008-06-11T19:39:00.003+08:00

Day Two.
I feel tired, a bit sad, a little lonely, and quite worried.
But today was a little better than yesterday.
Freshman blues :(

2008-06-10T20:04:00.004+08:00

Today was the first day of classes. I remember being excited during the last few days of summer because I was eager for my college life to start. But when I got to school this morning, I felt nervous and alone.

PE was my first subject and we were dismissed early.
I had a really long break afterwards. I was by myself for almost 2 hours :(
There was nothing to do so I went to National Bookstore and bought a magazine.
Then I went back to school but I couldn't find someone to spend the time with.
I felt so lonely. It was so hot and tiring...

My next class was at 1:30pm. Before that, I had lunch with my blockmates :)

After my last class, which was Ma11, I met up with my AA friends! I was sooo happy to see them.

I am quite worried about what will happen to me in the next few days. More long breaks to come. More alone time? NOOOO! :(

2008-06-05T21:18:00.004+08:00

Today's the first day of the OrSem. There was the SOSS Night too. I was in Ateneo from 7:30am 'til 8pm.

I am exhausted from all the walking, the running and the heat!

2008-05-31T19:05:00.011+08:00

I tried catching up on PBB lately because for the past couple of weeks I was not so interested anymore so I missed a lot of the happenings inside. I never got to watch even a single episode of their island adventure. So I figured I should catch up.

There are only 5 of them left and I think Robi is the only one deserving to win. I saw from last night's episode how OA Beauty could be. Nan was also a bit OA but it's understandable. He was nominated alongside Robi.

I really disapprove of the housemates' over-used reason for nominating Robi. They insist that he is already well-off. I don't think that should be the basis of the competition. I think it's the character/personality that matters more. Si Beauty and Nicole din naman mayaman na ah!

Robi has been nominated for the nth time already but his fans wouldn't let him get evicted. It's quite evident that he has the biggest fanbase compared to the other remaining teens. I predict that Robi will emerge as the Big Winner ;) He totally deserves it!

2008-05-29T21:51:00.006+08:00

"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me."
--Bella Swan (New Moon)

I really need something, anything, to distract me from my Twilight-NewMoon hangover.
I am hoping that school will do the job (BTW, school starts next week. I can't wait!)
I think my obsession with anything to do with the Twilight saga has already become unhealthy. Having nothing productive to do at home just makes it worse. *sigh*

2008-05-28T17:06:00.004+08:00

Loco

over

Lomo

*I want and need a lomo camera! =D

2008-05-26T20:31:00.010+08:00

The block listings of incoming Ateneo Freshmen are already posted. I saw it on someone's Multiply site.
There are five of us from my batch (AA '08) who are going to take up AB COM. Guess what? The four of them are in the same block and I belong to a different one. It sucks :(

But I want to be positive about it. I'm looking forward to making new friends, that's for sure!

I had my hair trimmed this afternoon. It's now layered and a little shorter than my old, messy hair. Plus, I decided to have side bangs. I like it ;)

I am done reading NEW MOON.
It was a good sequel... even though Edward Cullen doesn't appear in more than half of the book :|

It was emotional for Bella. I could almost feel her misery.(Maybe because the book was written on a first-person point-of-view so Bella's struggles somehow affected me too) OR MAYBE I'M JUST too EMO over my nonexistent lovelife. HAHA just kidding!

In the end, Edward came back for good. Bella was "whole" again
(OOPS, major spoiler for those who haven't read it yet. Hihi)

2008-05-18T21:50:00.005+08:00

Happy 6th Monthsary to my dear 4th year classmates! :)
Last night, we had a "class" party at Cay's house. Only few came but it was still fun.

Aien borrowed a DVD copy of HANA KIMI, the Taiwanese version. My siblings and I watched 2-3 episodes a day and we were able to finish it in one week.
I didn't like the ending. Awwww. I wasn't satisfied. It was slightly bitin and it wasn't the ending I wanted.

PS.
The boys in the series are cuuute. Haha!

SENIOR NAN <3
(Danson Tang)

2008-05-16T15:36:00.012+08:00

I finished reading TWILIGHT today :)
I am no book reviewer so I will say this on a teenage-reader's point-of-view:
Twilight is definitely worth reading!

The book's main focus is the vampire-human relationship of Edward and Bella but it's more than a LOVE STORY.

You will love Edward Cullen [That'll be the case if you're a girl. or a GAY] Hehe.
I admit, I'm obsessed with his dazzling personality and gorgeous looks! :D [You should blame Stephenie Meyer. She describes Edward's perfection in almost every... page? HAHA. Even Bella couldn't get used to it]

I am looking forward to the movie version.
I predict it's not going to be as good as the book but I hope it won't disappoint fans.

2008-05-10T14:39:00.003+08:00

In TeenTalk, there's this topic about "5 weird/unusual facts about you". I posted my own list in the forum and I decided to paste it here on my blog too! :)

Five Weird/Unusual Facts about Me:

1) When I read books, particularly novels, I have this habit of re-reading pages and/or chapters before I move on.

2) Every night, before I go to sleep, I check my bed sheets, pillows, blankets and even the walls of my room to make sure there are no creepy crawlies (insects, lizards, etc)

3) I make sure that I have no messages in my "Sent Items". After I send a message, I immediately erase it from the Sent Items folder.

4) I like Converse shoes (specifically Chucks) but I don't own a pair! Haha!

5) In my 17 years of existence on this planet, I haven't been inside an airplane.

2008-05-10T13:26:00.007+08:00

Yesterday morning, Mom and I went to Medical City to have my medical form filled up by a physician and also for my lab tests (X-Ray, Blood Count/Test, Urinalysis). These are required by the Loyola Schools Infirmary.

To be honest, I am quite scared of injections :| Everything went well during the blood extraction but the needle pained my skin a little, as expected. Soon after I got my blood taken, I went to another room for my X-Ray.

So everything was done and Mom and I set off for lunch. It was really hot outside 'cause it was around noon time. Then all of a sudden, my left arm (where my blood was taken) felt weak. My vision started to blur. I felt dizzy and I knew my body was about to collapse as if all my energy had been drained. I told my mom about it and she brought me to the nearest seat/bench. I took a couple of gulps from a water bottle but that didn't help much. I leaned on my mom, with both my arms around her.

Then I lost my consciousness.

I opened my eyes and saw my mom's worried face while she was gently tapping my cheeks. I felt a little better. She brought me back to the room where we came from. The air-conditioning was a big help in my recovery.

I'm not sure why I passed out. Maybe it was because of the sudden change in temperature, or maybe it was due to my tiredness from playing soccer the day before and lack of sleep. Or MAYBE, it was the result of the decreased blood in my bloodstream. I dunno. I just thank God nothing worse had happened.

Change topic :)
I'm currently reading Twilight and I'm obsessed with Edward Cullen.
I wish he was real :(
VAMPIRES are love. Hahaha!

2008-05-08T20:06:00.004+08:00

Carissa, Girlyn and I played soccer in one of the fields of Ateneo ;)

Girlyn taught us some basics.
(Sorry na, beginner lang ako. HAHA)
It was fun and exhausting! It rained a little but we enjoyed anyway.

My legs are starting to ache right now but I anticipate more pain tomorrow. OH NO.

2008-05-07T20:39:00.007+08:00

Since my summer is getting really boring and unproductive, I decided I should do something worthwhile. I volunteered for Childhope!:P

Today was our first day. We first went to Quezon Memorial Circle (QC Circle? I'm not sure) and met Ate Faith. She talked about Childhope, what they do, what to expect, etc. Basically, this NGO helps street children in many ways, so that they'll have a better future. What we had earlier in the afternoon was sort of an orientation while we waited for the rain to stop. When it did, we went to Commonwealth to have a better understanding and view of the environment where the children live.

Then we were introduced to some boys in Tandang Sora who are about our age. They literally live in the streets. I think they don't go home anymore. I'm not sure if they still have a house to go to or if they just ran away from their families :( They sleep beside McDonald's and earn money around the area by guiding drivers as they park and "unpark" and through other ways. We spent about half an hour with them. They were actually fun to be with. They told us about themselves and what they do. They also joked around. My fellow volunteers and I were amused.

Those guys we met in Tandang Sora seem used to it... You know, the reality of poverty and having to work and stop schooling. I still have a lot to know about them and the other children we are going to mingle with in the coming weeks. I definitely look forward to the next Childhope encounter ;D

2008-05-05T15:47:00.002+08:00

I look stupid... laughing by myself in front of the computer :P

No one's at home except me. I'm watching random videos on YouTube featuring the Jonas Brothers. Hehe :))

There's this particular one where Joe Jonas played his cellphone ringtone and he lip-synched while it was playing. It was a song by the Backstreet Boys.
It was hilarious! Or maybe I'm just mababaw :P

2008-05-04T17:19:00.004+08:00

Christmas is still months away, so is my 18th birthday, but I made a wishlist anyway!
[Ohh, rhyme?] :) It may seem ambitious but duh, it's a WISH list :)

[] SLR Camera
[] Laptop
[] iPod (Unfortunately, I don't have one)
[] European Tour!
[] Ticket/s to a Paramore concert (and airfare too!)
[] Shopping spree!
[] Monthly issues of Teen Vogue, Nylon, Elle Girl, etc.
*but subscriptions to Local Fashion and Teen Magazines will do :)
[] A designer bag :P (LV, Chanel, Hermes, etc) HAHA, so materialistic of me >:)
[] K.O.T.S.E.

I'll update this list in the near future 'cause for sure I'll be wanting more :P

2008-05-03T15:29:00.002+08:00

It's raining hard this afternoon.

It's already MAY! And my summer's still boring and what I do each day has become like a routine :|
I want to go shopping but I don't have money :P Paano na ang college "wardrobe" ko? HAHA.
I want to go out of town.

I can't wait to go to school. COLLEGE na. Yeeey :) I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

2008-04-24T13:46:00.001+08:00

DAVID COOK = HOT
I loooove his version of "MUSIC OF THE NIGHT"
I believe he's gonna be this season's AMERICAN IDOL.
WOOOHOOO! <3

2008-04-12T13:23:00.001+08:00

ATENEO na.
FINAL na.

2008-04-11T12:35:00.004+08:00

This is one of the hardest decisions I have to make and until now, I still can't decide. I asked my parents to decide for me.
My mom wants me in ADMU 'cause I was granted a 50% scholarship.
My dad wants me in UP.

I can't choose. I DONT KNOW.

A while ago, my mom was on her way to bring the requirements to ADMU (magcoconfirm na dapat) when my DAD called and told us mag-UP na lang daw ako.

Actually, I'm okay with both schools.
My courses are very much related.
But when you think about it, MAS MURA pa rin sa UP. My family is having difficulties with our finances so if I go to ADMU, medyo mahihirapan pa rin kami even with the 50% financial aid.

PERO SAYANG YUNG SCHOLARSHIP.

Personally, gusto ko mag-ADMU. Pero it's our financial situation that's making me worried. Sa Assumption pa lang, hirap na kami magbayad ng tuition. The half that we'll be paying if I go to Ateneo is almost equal to my tuition in AA.
And yeah, with a scholarship, I really have to maintain my grades and allot my time for service and extra-curriculars. I think kaya ko naman yun.

I have doubts and I don't want to regret in the end.
That's why I can't decide for myself!
Pero the biggest concern is the money. AS USUAL :((
If only my family could afford it, I'll choose ADMU over UP. HONESTLY.
Pero hindi kami mayaman eh. KINAKAYA lang kami pag-aralin sa private school.

So I have to make sacrifices too.
And UP isn't a bad option.
I'm really okay with UP.

SOOO, ano ba talaga?
THIS IS THE LAST DAY TO CONFIRM in ADMU.
Ewaaaaaaaaaaaaan. UP na nga ba? Kasi yun na sabi ni DADDY ehh.
Most probably, iskolar-ng-bayan na nga ako :)

2008-03-26T21:56:00.007+08:00

I'm currently obsessed with...
GOSSIP GIRL (TV show) and PBB Teen Edition Plus :)

Anywaaaay.

Guess who's graduating in two days?

YEP, I'm officially out of High School after the 28th!
Finally!

2008-03-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

I am usually misjudged to be a nerd. A particular classmate of mine has been constantly teasing me about it recently. Most of the time, I do not really mind being called a nerd but sometimes I do get affected. Wearing eyeglasses and doing quite well in academics does not really make a person a nerd, right?

Here are some instances when I was labeled a nerd by my classmates. I find the following examples quite amusing in my part because I do not really take the teasing seriously.

During one English period, we had a group presentation, a “commercial” to be specific, about how we can remove the stereotype on Assumptionists as “burgis”. For my role, I mentioned, “I will do my homeworks first before going to parties and events.” Then two of my classmates commented quite audibly, “Nerd!” And everyone who heard the remark laughed. It made me laugh too but at the same time I wondered, “What is so nerdy about what I said?”

Another instance was during one Academic Writing period. “Girls, please pass your Artist Date,” Ms. Miranda instructed us. I handed my written output to my classmate sitting in front of me. She glanced at my paper for a second then asked me, “What is your Artist Date about?” I answered sheepishly, “It’s about debate. I have nothing else to write about anyway.” Then my classmate laughed and teased me, “You’re such a nerd, Ayesa!” To add to the amusement, she even told her seatmate about it. I heard her say, “Guess what Ayesa’s Artist Date is about?” Her seatmate replied, “What?” Then I heard her respond, “It is about Debate! Of all topics!” Then both of them made fun of me. I tried not to laugh along so I just gave them an annoyed look but they know I was just kidding. Again, I was misjudged to be a nerd just because I tried debating. There is nothing wrong with being a nerd so I just go along with the jokes.

2008-02-29T20:13:00.000+08:00

It's SO hard to be a PIG.

2008-02-13T22:03:00.001+08:00

I really have to blog about this!
MARC JACOBS named a bag after BRYAN-BOY!
It just proves how famous that gay blogger has become. I admit, I go to his site sometimes. ADDICTING, really. He rocks.

Change topic! [American Idol]
DAVID ARCHULETA and JOSIAH LEMING are my favorites.
They're really good. Plus, they're cute.

2008-02-11T17:05:00.001+08:00

My Artist Date (For Acad. Writing)

Debate

The start of my senior life was accompanied by a really big question. What club should I join? I could not help but be anxious about it since this is my last year in Assumption Antipolo, which means that whatever club I choose would be my last one. Besides, there is not turning back once I join a club. I mustered enough courage to audition for Pamulatan, Komusikasyon and AFS. Apparently, my acting and singing skills were not good enough seeing that I got rejected in the first two clubs. Fortunately, I made it to the Assumption Forensics Society, also known as the debate club. I still remember the questions I had to answer and defend during the tryout. The first was a serious question of whether the richer countries should cancel the debts of the less developed nations. I answered yes and explained why. Now that I have learned enough from our Economics subject, I figured out my answer was wrong. The second question was about my opinion on Shakespeare’s gender because some are saying he is gay. I said the contrary. It was nerve-wracking standing there in front of three or four AFS officers and grasping for words to justify my answers. Until now, I am still unsure how I made it to the club. Was I able to convince the panel, even just slightly, with my answers? Or maybe they just saw something in me regardless of my responses said with hesitations and my stammering English.
Fast forward to a few months and I could be seen holding a green debate manual, listening to the difference between Asian and British Parliament, telling a current event in front of my club mates or participating in an actual debate, which is something new to me. I have involved myself with debates before, like those heated arguments with my parents, reasoning in class about a certain topic or something as trivial as disagreeing with a friend regarding which celebrity is cuter. But those are not actual debates. Real debates have a panel of adjudicators, a government side and an opposition side, as well as rebuttals, definition of terms, motions (open, close, semi-closed), etc. I never knew these until I joined AFS and I have learned quite a lot already. But I still have to improve on my confidence and assertiveness especially when participating in an actual debate.
I have been chosen to participate in two of our club debates. The first was in September 2007. I was given the part of opening opposition, contradicting the motion that the Philippine Government should publicize procurement transactions. It was a serious topic that required analyzing and reasoning. I was so nervous the whole time especially when it was already my turn to speak. This was my first official debate and my confidence level almost dropped to zero degrees because I was uncertain how I would defend our side and if I would end up successful in doing so. Good thing my teammates assured me that everything would turn out okay and it did. I was relieved when I was through speaking. The second debate I participated in happened more recently, just last January. Our side reasoned that priests should run for government positions and we defended why. Even if it was already my second official debate, I still felt very nervous to the point of panicking. It was a challenging experience once again.
Honestly, I did not enjoy the first few club meetings but I have already learned to appreciate them nowadays. The club has made me aware of current news locally and internationally. In debates, we argue about something that matters, not just anything shallow. As human beings gifted with the capacity to think and decide, we all have opinions and we have to learn to fight for what we believe in. I am already learning that little by little. I might be a little shy until now but I know I have improved on my confidence a lot. As for my debating skills, I still have a lot to learn so I will make the most of the few club meetings left.

2008-01-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

Girlyn's debut is just two days away and I still don't have anything WHITE to wear.
HELP! I need a white dress!

I saw a crush of mine in the Mall a few hours ago. He was with his "GIRL". They were HHWW [In case you've been living under a rock, let me tell you what that acronym stands for: HOLDING HANDS WHILE WALKING)

2008-01-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

It's quite unusual, ME updating my blog like this.

Anyway, I spent more than 3 hours researching for our ECON paper about the role of the financial sector in the development of the Phil (...)
I was able to get some data but the thing is, I'm not getting any of it. I'm not getting the point, I'm not getting the guidelines, I'm not getting this project at ALL.

HECK, I don't like ECONOMICS. My MQT grade in this subject is actually my lowest this 3rd quarter.

I'm so sleepy already.

Even though I don't want to admit it, I believe I wasted half the time I spent in front of this computer. I haven't officially started anything. AND the paper's due on WEDNESDAY already.

ARGH, High school is a SUCKFEST.

2008-01-12T16:19:00.000+08:00

Pumasa ko ng UP
Yaaaaaay!:)

No one's expecting that UP was going to release the results today.

Thank God I passed. I love you LORD :)

I'm still waiting for Ateneo's decision regarding my scholarship :) Without the scholarship, we can't afford the tuition in ADMU.
SO SUPER HAPPY ako kasi may SURE school na ko. University of the Philippines!

2008-01-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

For months, they insisted they were JUST FRIENDS but with the paparazzi pictures of them I've seen recently on the net, I'm certain Hayden and Milo are DATING.

They look cute together! I have a crush on MILO. But the fact that he's seeing Hayden does not make me hate Hayden. I've liked her ever since I started watching Heroes.

*pic from tmz.com

Usually kasi, kapag may girlfriend yung Celebrity crush ko, naaasar ako dun sa GIRL
(Perfect example: Ashlee Simpson) haha, bitter ko lang dahil sa kanya si Pete Wentz :))

2008-01-09T13:08:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school today 'cause I felt I needed a break. [HAHA, kaka-Christmas break lang, gusto ko na agad ng break]
I think this is my first absent for this school year.
I revised our IP paper last night and finished at 11pm. I didn't have time to study for my Filipino MQT and Physics quiz. That's another reason why I'm absent today :)

WALA LANG, just sharing.

It was Missy's 18th birthday party last Sunday night. SUPER FUN :D RETRO theme.

2008-01-06T12:29:00.000+08:00

I PASSED THE ACET! YAHOO! :D
THANK YOU LORD!

Search Result:
LAST NAME: Lemence
FIRST AND MIDDLE NAME: Ayesa Mira Gonzales
STATUS: Accepted
COURSE: AB COM
SCHOLARSHIP: W

According to the legend,
W - No Final Decision on scholarship application.

I really hope I get the scholarship...

2007-12-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary to my BLOG :)
I started this blog on DEC. 31, 2005.
It's now DEC. 31, 2007, which means that my blog has been existing for two years na. TAGAL na rin =D

2007-12-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

Nagpaprint lang ako ng Les Miserables literary criticism ko sooo..
I'll post a copy here to be sure.

Les Miserables
Archetypal Criticism

The novel, Les Miserables, chronicled the lives of its many unforgettable characters, most of them considered archetypes. I am sure that those who have read Victor Hugo’s most popular work would not forget the ex-convict, Jean Valjean. The other memorable archetypal characters in this novel include the orphan, Cosette, and her mother Fantine, who became a prostitute. Who could forget the haunting character of Javert, “the human law”, and Thenardier, the epitome of evil? I am quite sure that several fans of the book were inspired by the saintly Bishop Bienvenu and were instantly attracted to Marius, the Idealist/Romantic.
The antagonist, Jean Valjean, was an ex-convict who was transformed to a better man under the influence of Bishop Bienvenu and Cosette. Though he strived to change, his criminal past had put a negative label on him as seen in the discrimination he experienced. When he was released from the galleys, no house accepted him but the bishop’s. When he became Mayor, he hid his identity as ex-convict because he knew the people’s trust and loyalty would abate once they discover his past. He was only forced to reveal himself to save Champmathieu. His decision showed how much he has become a good person. Ex-convicts in literature, in films/shows and even in reality are victims of the same prejudice and isolation.
Cosette and Fantine, being the two most significant women in the book, are archetypal characters because they may be perceived as stereotypes. Cosette as an orphan was depicted as innocent and miserable especially when she was still living with the Thenardiers. In our society, as well as in literary texts and movies/TV shows, abandoned children are also seen as wretched and naïve. In the case of Fantine, her desperation forced her into prostitution. Women who make this a living are commonly considered “dirty” because prostitution is believed to be indecent. That is the reason why Fantine felt disrespected and experienced inferiority in the novel.
There were two antagonists in the story with whom Jean Valjean was in conflict with. Inspector Javert is the characterization of human law. Just like any police archetype, he enforced the rules and punished those who did not conform. Because Javert was obsessed with implementing what is right according to the law, he determinedly chased Jean Valjean. The epitome of evil in the novel is none other than Thenardier. He was a corrupt and cruel criminal who manipulated others. He was greedy and selfish just like other evil archetypes in literature, movies and TV shows. If there is the presence of wickedness in the novel through Thenardier, there is also the existence of goodness via Father Bienvenu. He was the saintly bishop who triggered JV’s change of heart. He was a channel of kindness and compassion, same with other virtuous archetypal characters.
Last but not the least is Marius, the idealist. He is more popularly known as Cosette’s sweetheart, but more than that, he was a member of a protest group who wanted changes in their society. His character is similar to other romantic archetypes. It took him some time before he realized his love for Cosette and he did everything to win her heart. Indeed, all the main characters of Les Miserables are archetypes whose stories are worth-reading and whose lives have inspired and taught the readers in one way or another.

2007-12-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

I'm posting my Kubrador movie review here.
Just in case..
CAI room is there naman.

Kubrador
Rebyu ng Pelikula

Hindi na kataka-taka kung bakit maraming nakuhang mga gantimpala ang indie film na Kubrador. Bukod sa magaling na pagganap ni Gina Pareño bilang pangunahing tauhan, ang kahanga-hangang pangunahing kaisipan ng Kubrador ang masasabing malaking dahilan ng pag-aani ng tagumpay nito. Maituturing pantematiko ang pinakadiwa o kabuluhan ng pelikulang Kubrador. Nagpakita ito ng isang pananaw sa buhay sa pamamagitan ng perspektibo ng isang kubrador sa huweteng. Mabisa nitong naipahatid sa manonood ang pangunahing kaisipan sapagkat maganda ang istorya, magaling ang director at ang kabuuan. Ang mensahe tungkol sa realidad ng huweteng ay naiparating sa mga manonood sa pamamagitan ng paglalahad ng kuwento ni Amy na isang kubrador bilang halimbawa.
Naging mahusay ang pagkakagawa sa pelikula. Ang mga pangyayari ay nagsalamin ng katotohanan. Ganoon din ang mga eksena at tagpo. Ang mga lugar na pinag-shootingan ay angkop sa simple ngunit interesanteng pelikulang ito. Mahusay ang pagkakasulat at paglalahad ng mga diyalogo na tapat sa personalidad at katayuan sa buhay ng mga karakter. Si Gina Pareño ang nag-iisang kilalang artista na kasama at dahil sa kaniyang pagganap bilang si Amy, ang pangunahing tauhan, lumabas lalo ang kaniyang galing sa pag-arte. Natural ang kaniyang pagganap at hindi Over-Acting. Ang iba namang mga nagsiganap ay hindi masyadong kilala ngunit kasing-hanay na rin nila ang ibang sikat at magagaling na artista pagdating sa pag-arte.
Gaya ng ibang mahuhusay na mga pelikula, mayroon ding mga balyus at mensahe na nais ipahatid ng indie film na ito. Isa na rito ang pagiging masipag. Kahit ilegal man, matiyagang nagkukumbinse sa mga tao, nagpupunta kung saan-saan at naghahatid ng panalo si Amy dahil ikinabubuhay niya na ang huweteng. Isa rin siyang halimbawa ng pagiging matulungin sa kapwa at ng pagkakaroon ng pananalig sa Diyos. Ipinakitang nagdadasal siya at nag-aalay ng oras at pera para sa mga namatayan. Hindi nawalan ng pag-asa si Amy at isa ito sa mga balyus na dapat rin nating isabuhay.
Ipinakita ang pagka-Filipino sa Kubrador sa pamamagitan ng pagpapakita ng paniniwala sa suwerte. Ang mga tumataya sa huweteng ay umaasa lamang sa suwerte na tumama ang kanilang mga numero. Habang ang balato at kita ng kubrador ay umaasa rin sa suwerte. Hindi maaalis sa mga Filipino ang paniniwala sa suwerte at ang laganap na operasyon ng huweteng. Hindi mawawala sa proseso ang pandadaya at pangungurakot. Mabisang nailahad ng pelikula ang mga katotohanang ito na kahit negatibo ay matapat sa ating pagka-Filipino. Masasabi kong mabisa sapagkat nabuksan ang aking isipan sa realidad na ang huweteng ay sakit na ng lipunan at may ugat itong mahirap tanggalin. Ang kahirapan na rin siguro ang dahilan kung kaya’t marami pa rin ang umaasa sa huweteng kahit ito ay ilegal.

2007-11-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

I thought we're going to reach our dreams together :(

Conspiracy
by Paramore

Please speak softly, for they will hear us
And they'll find out why we don't trust them
Speak up dear cause I cannot hear you
I need to know why we don't trust them

Explain to me this conspiracy against me
And tell me how I've lost my power

Where can I turn? Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty I'm so unsure
Tell me why I feel so alone
Cause I need to know to whom do I owe

Explain to me this conspiracy against me
And tell me how I've lost my power

I thought that we'd make it
Because you said that we'd make it through
And when all security fails
Will you be there to help me through?

Explain to me this conspiracy against me
And tell me how I've lost my power

I've lost my power

2007-11-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

BAD DAY.
Just because of one effin incident! :| I consider this as one of the worst situations I've encountered. But I'm the one to blame. It was really stupid and irresponsible of me.

Tomorrow's our MATH CAMP. We already have most of what we need until I LOST the Watsons plastic bag which contained almost all our MATERIALS. Including the irreplaceable tokens and sign-up sheet of our center.

Here's the narration of the unfortunate event:

During departure, I was in the covered walk waiting for my bus.
I was sitting on the wooden "beam" and on the floor was my bag, my file case and the Watsons plastic bag. There were a few bags belonging to other students that were near my stuff. For a few minutes, I just sat there alone then some of my busmates came and I chatted with them. After some time, I noticed that my bag and file case were the only things left in the area. Someone got the Watsons plastic bag! It was nowhere to be found.

My guess is, while I was busy chatting with my busmates, a bus driver accidentally picked it up thinking one of his passengers owned it. Or probably, a student thought it was hers. I am not really sure what happened to our math camp materials.

I tried looking for it with no success so I just went home feeling miserable, trying my best to come up with a plan. I already have one at the moment. I just hope it works. But regarding the tokens and sign-up sheet, I still don't have any idea how I'll come up with new ones.

But I'm still hoping that the precious bag will be returned tomorrow morning.
IT HAS TO BE RETURNED.

2007-11-20T14:41:00.000+08:00

I just had the best Baguio experience during our Retreat last November 15-19, 2007 at the Assumption Sabbath Place.

Beautiful place and weather, awesome food, accommodating Sisters, enlightening activities, fun bonding, the best facilitator/retreat master (Fr. Edwin) and lovely St. Martin Kids :)
No wonder the Retreat was unforgettable!

I love you IV-3! :>

Pictures here. CLICK

2007-11-07T18:19:00.000+08:00

Life.. It can be annoying.

During the first day of my SEMBREAK, our telephone line got disconnected 'cause we haven't paid. When my parents could actually pay already, PLDT was closed for 2 days because of the holidays. CRAP. NO INTERNET -- the whole sembreak!

So my Mom paid our bill last Monday. Our telephone line resumed yesterday but our DSL connection got back just a few minutes ago. THE LAST NIGHT BEFORE CLASSES RESUME.

2007-10-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

2nd Quarterly Tests are officially over! Yehey --not!

There's an Econ Groupwork to finish. AND WHERE ARE MY GROUPMATES? Tsk tsk.
There's also the AK documentation/reflection about our HANDOG NG SARILI. Crap.
HOY GROUPMATES! Bakit ako lang nagwoworry about it?

At super duper malas. Because of ME, NABURA yung COMPUTER project namin [Program- SCAA Elections] Grrreeaat!
PINAGHIRAPAN namin 'yon.

So we have to make a new one again tomorrow [While the others are playing in the INTRAMS] Good thing meron kaming na-save na mga forms. BUT THEN, the effin TALLY BOARD took us hours to make and that's the crap we have to make again.
Ang saya noh?

ARRRRRRRRRRRGH.

2007-10-24T14:17:00.000+08:00

Something random.

I have this new crush. When I say new, I mean 'less than a month old' crush :)

Anyway, a couple of minutes ago, I saw some of his pictures on Multiply (No worries, I'm not logged in. HAHA). He was smoking and drinking. Aww. TURN-OFF :(

Ang stalker-ish ng ginagawa ko. Oh well, the Multiply site is for EVERYONE!

Haha. Wala lang. Tinatamad ako mag-aral! Last day of 2nd Quarterly tests tomorrow!
Then INTRAMS. By the way, I am sport-less [AGAIN] :(

2007-10-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

I'M CURRENTLY LISTENING TO THE RX CONCERT SERIES.
-----The Click Five!

They're playing their awesome music!

I'm totally crushin' on KYLE PATRICK <3 The vocalist!
His voice is so hot! And I swear he's drop-dead-gorgeous :)

"Jenny" was a major LSS.
I also like "EMPTY" and "ALL I NEED IS YOU".

KYLE KYLE KYLE KYLE KYLE KYLE
This is love <3

2007-10-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

I am super weird.
A few minutes ago, I decided to create a Friendster account.
Then after editing my profile, I cancelled my account.
HAHAHA.
Nagsayang lang ako ng oras.
I guess I'll just be contented with my Multiply account, blogger account [which I don't get to update as often], and YM account.

Eh kasi naman, mas masaya mang-stalk sa FRIENDSTER eh. HAHAHAHA. Kiddin!

It's past 11pm. I only had a couple of HWs but instead of sleeping early, I went online and used the internet without any school-related reason.
I'm such a responsible kid, huh?

Melinda and I "pinky-swore" that we're gonna be ROCKSTARS someday.
But I told her, in case I don't become a rockstar, kunin na lang nila kong BAND MANAGER. Haha :))

Aww,sweet! Kyla gave me a set of STAEDTLER pens yesterday.
I was not expecting it. THANKS KYLA! <3 SUPER DUPER THANKS!

Not let's blog about my club: Assumption Forensic(s) Society.
To tell you the truth, I feel so "bobo" there.
My clubmates ARE so smart and they speak really well. Sabi nga sa Debate, GOOD MANNER AND GOOD MATTER! I super duper admire them.

I feel like I don't belong in AFS because I'm not really interested in social/political stuff like what we discuss during club hours. That's why I'm usually quiet but I try my best to listen and learn from the others. But to be honest, I don't think DEBATE is for me :( I lack confidence, spontaneity and critical thinking.

Wala lang. I just feel sad and a little bored pag clubs. KASI NGA, hindi ako Debate Person. BUT I KNOW GOD HAS PLANS FOR ME kaya niya ko nilagay sa AFS :|